Giving

I want to give zero fucks 

Give out, give in, then give up 

Cry mercy, burn it down, wallow in muck 

Judgment blur and energy disrupt 

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Overwhelm and shut down 

Pull away and go dark 

Hurt is completely blown 

The emptiness in contrast stark

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What use is staying close 

When the tides retreat 

To vulnerability expose 

And painful abrasions repeat

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Pull away and undertow swept 

I expect it regularly 

Intimacy on a shelf kept 

The cycle is understood clearly

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What are needs and what are wants 

What time is easy to endure 

When regularity of pain haunts 

Makes giving unsure

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Continue to generously and freely give 

Hope we, through cycles, survive 

Or let love leak out through sieve 

Fearing, the hurt will kill the thrive.